But not with tenderness.
She smiled with sheer exhaustion.
“You should have said that when I still cared enough to believe you.”
That night I didn’t sleep in our bed.
Sarah closed the bedroom door.
I stayed on the couch, staring at the ceiling, listening to the hum of the refrigerator and the breathing of my children down the hall.
At three in the morning, I opened the folder again.
It wasn’t a folder of jealousy.
It was a chronicle of abandonment.
There were photos of birthdays I didn’t attend.
Medical bills that Sarah had paid while I claimed I was stuck in meetings.
Screenshots of another woman texting me: “I miss you.”
While I was lying to my wife.
Then I found the photo that completely destroyed me.
Sarah at the Charleston Children’s Hospital, holding our youngest son while he burned with a fever.
On the back of the photo, she had written: “David said he couldn’t come.”
“That night he was in Mount Pleasant with Jessica.”
I covered my mouth.
For the first time, I understood the true magnitude of my cruelty.